Friday, February 27, 2009

If You Can Keep Me

I'm so blue without you
Are you blue too?
It so cold out here, Donny
Is it cold there?
It's like ice, Donny
How must it be like
To see home soon

Someday i know your coming
It will rain that day
Eyes will be hazy
And i will run away

Someday i know you will be here
Clear skies will lead
Everyone will watch
That day i will fly away

Donny, dont let them handle me
They dont treat me kind
Remember that letter i wrote you
Can we see the old algiers
If you can keep me
Ill stay forever

Night wont end, Donny
When will you come
Remember that promise you made
Can we leave soon
If you can keep me
Ill stay forever

Donny, sometimes it feels like dying
The heat feels like melting
Dont let them come for me
Can we go away
If you can keep me
Ill stay forever

If You Can Keep Me, Ill Stay Forever..

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Slow Hysteria..Sex and The City Theme By Groove Armada

Sex and the city theme! and you think of that uplifting sexy tune that starts off right when the show begins however the producers chose another song to represent the show as its THEME. This theme that im talking about was meant for a soundtrack release with other hit songs that go with the 'theme' of the show. Naturally these songs were used during the episodes of the first few seasons when this CD came out, each one as funky as the rest, each with a meaning. Yet when it all boils down to that one song that takes the cake it has to be the theme created by house music legends Groove Armada. This song is a slow, sensual, drunken kind of song, how do i even explain it? its a mix of everything, its really like a feeling in itself. Can I just say how many nights i have spent listening to this slow haunting and hangover'esque song, till today i get transported back to random moments in my life the past two years. Every vision is murky and mysterious yet i know it so very well, i end up getting goosebumps, i want those days back so badly despite detesting the notion of it. How funny is music, it carries you to such familiar territories. When you get there you realize as familiar as these places seem they are now just vivid memories, embalmed in the back of your head, triggered by this sound that played then. My friend Rudra once told me that this song is very 'metropolitan', it made no sense really but it also meant so much more than just that one word. This song is a city in itself...its the struggles, the confusions, the heart-aches, the constant madness, the run.

Im hearing this as i type and i feel a sudden rush of memories. Theyre like water when a tube bursts. I see so much and its comforting but also frightening, i dont want to remember. If i remember too much i will be pained and if it goes on i might want it all over again. I can see my friends all over the place, a variety of songs including this theme song. We're so sure of ourselves, we believe we have it all, if someone said we were delusional, they'd be idiots to think so. I swear i couldve imagined it would've lasted forever. J calls up and says is nearby somewhere, i'm young and unbridled, i leave and go where i should. Its 7am, it doesnt matter whether the others have just started their day, mine's still not over yet. J is all i want and those days were smoky, they were slow and they were dreamy. Even then i'd play this song and think of it like langauge to my thoughts and now when i play it, i can revisit those days. As we go ahead in time certain fragments of the past get less tormenting, approaching them becomes easier and it becomes a sweet kind of pain to envision those times. A few months back i wouldnt play this song because it would just take me back to places i didnt wanna see, to thoughts i was trying to avoid. Now its different, and the song lives on forever. I wonder if 5 years down the line the same will happen when i play this song. Is it true that sometimes when you love something so much that it becomes entrenched in that very moment? and everytime your around it it takes you back to that very moment. So surreal, im feeling this sort of sadness as i type cuz i miss those days and yet im so glad theyre done with.

Somehow i'm addicted to Groove Armada's theme right now. I was watching one of the re-runs of this amazing show and it came on and back when i saw this episode i didnt know of this song. Today when it started playing it felt so APT! They played it right when Carrie was talking about her fulfilling relationship with Aiden yet she was getting plagued by the memory of the previous night when she slept with BIG. She cheated on this lovely guy and now she is in this dilemma and its so NEW YORK, so hungover, so confused, such slow hysteria...

I love this song! Hear it!

Friday, February 20, 2009

Under The Pink

Sparkling, glowing
Inviting, tempting

Melted motley of colour

Shimmering diamond

Under the pink

Speaking with no voice

Glitters but with no shine

Shimmers but its fake

Glistens but it dries up

Hold it but it fades out

Run behind it relentless
Maelstrom delirium

One of those days
Lost in space
Hot & Cold
It all comes about

Dives, Jumps, Pounces

Seeing with no eyes

Erase it if you must

Something to dissipate


Screams, Blares, Yelps
Touching with no feel

Under The Pink
Under The Pink

Find me

Skips A Beat

Wont be over even when the tide settles

Possesed, hypnotized, hysterical delirium

This kaleidoscope, this ecstasy, this orgy

Keep moving, retro revival, disco ball

Confetti galore, grind slow, colours combust

Strobe lights, neon eyes

Dance, fly in the sky with me

My heart skips a beat

When we get together

Kisses come from some heaven

Sweeter as we go deeper and deeper

I slip slowly, keep falling

Linger endlessly, endless reverie

My heart skips a beat

Tight grip, galaxy ride

Diamonds everywhere, Sparkle

Emerald green, awe struck in paradise

Rapid images, flight of fantasy

Secrets told, overflowing desire

Fervid, enraptured, ready to explode

My heart skips a beat

Call my name, whisper...

How do you like your love?

Eye of the storm, deeper than the ocean

Utopian odyssey, overwhelming upheaval

Incessant Profusion, mixed surrender

Sweetest Taboo

We disappear

My heart skips a beat

Thursday, February 19, 2009

We Belong Together

Sometimes songs can speak to me so much more than the people around me. Sometimes it can bring alive such stark realities that id otherwise keep pressed away, it can move me in ways i cant explain and take me to dimensions i cant otherwise understand. We Belong Together is one such song. It took me into space.

J and I would play it all the time and maybe even repeat the words to each other sometimes, these are little secrets i kept concealed and today theyre free and i embrace them so openly. I'd just lie there and play it all day long. And then obviously when J would disappear and none of my friends had a clue i'd use this song and relate it to it in such levels that nobody could've put a finger on. I remember those lazy afternoons i'd just sit around, languid, listening to this song. Sometimes i'd paint pictures of how I will be in love again. It's the kind of song that makes you want to be in love. I This song just has to be the one that splits me open till today. Call me schmaltzy, call me cheesy, it really doesnt matter because its songs like these that speak to our deepest emotions. IAM A COMPLETE 'WE BELONG TOGETHER' junkie. It moves me to crumble up completely, i get goosebumps listening to mariah's voice and the lyrics are just so simplistic that its extremely ease to end up relating to it. Everyone can relate to this one. PLEASE HAVE A LISTEN AND COMMENT

Just as a selling point this song has won 3 grammies and numerous other awards apart for being the song of 2005 and the longest stay at #1 this decade. It also happens to be Mariah's biggest hit in terms of worldwide chart success and the amazing career comeback for her. Her 16!! #1 single and definetely one of her best!

I didn't mean it when I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight I never should've let you go
I didn't know nothing I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself

I could not fathom that I would ever be without your love
Never imagined I'd be sitting here beside myself
'Cause I didn't know you, 'cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt

The feeling that I'm feeling now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips 'cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give to have you lying by my side
Right here, 'cause baby
(We belong together)

When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
'Cause we belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone 'till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place there ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together

I can't sleep at night when you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio saying to me:
"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute this is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station so I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break and then I hear Babyface
I only think of you and it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together but I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song it ain't even half of what I'm feeling inside
I need you, need you back in my life, baby
(We belong together)

When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
'Cause we belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone 'til the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place there ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together, baby!

When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
'Cause we belong together

Who I'm gonna lean on when times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me 'til the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place there ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Work In Progress

A part of me is flooded with thoughts and they're so wild that i cant put them together !!
Another part of me is BLANK , completely clueless!
Currently trying to organize a meeting between all my alter egos towards a common ground
Hence the lack of blog updates... :(

To my wonderful 4 followers...(if you're listening) and 2 fickle fans (hiding bitches) i will be updating shortly...
If you're listening!!! I WILL BE BACK AND IT WILL BE GOOD


Thursday, February 5, 2009

My All - Song

Mariah Carey - My All (From the album: Butterfly) 1997

Spanish guitar strumming slowly, forlorn, feelings we leave behind resurface and a song brings to life emotions that we find hard to verbalize or even understand. The mood of 'My All' is that of gloom, solitude, dejection and ultimately a pleading to the one who left you this way. Rarely do we come across vocalists who can bring alive feelings to such an extent that it becomes larger than life, it goes to the point that you start relating to it in a very personal way. She sings of being alone and of unrequited love, the desperation in her velvet smooth voice is so apparent it gives you chills. She sings of sleeplessness, of drowning into this man who is no longer with her, she will risk her life for a moment of togetherness. She yearns so sincerely that the listener glides into their own personal situation, music becomes a langauge, it speaks to the listener.

'Baby can you feel me, imagining im looking in your eyes, i can see you so clearly, vividly emblazoned in my mind yet your so far like a distant star, im wishing on tonight'

Its like this endless haze, this limitless space that is solely dedicated to her disdain, to her heartbreak. She is lost somewhere in this vacuum. You imagine her lying somewhere pining, she is so human that it becomes unreal because we are forced in our everyday lives to be strong and keep it together. The soothing yet plaintive sound of the Spanish guitar tugs you to fall into her woes, some fall into their own woes. Mariah's voice so lustrously hypnotic can reduce the best among us to cave in and reminisce; do we have an unrequited love somewhere in this world? Do we spend precious moments of our lives remembering how it used to be and do we wish it were the same like it was. Do we long for what's was unfairly taken away from us?

The song builds up simultaneously with her plea, her voice reaches the stratosphere to exemplify and magnify her cravings;

I'd give my all to have just one more night with you, I'd risk my life to feel your body next to mine 'Cause I can't go on living in the memory of our song, I'd give my all for your love tonight.

The bridge is a dreamy sequence. Humming solitude never sounded so convincing.
The song closes with a very low note as if to symbolize how low she really feels.

My All is one of those classic torch ballads that we covertly find ourselves indulging in to set free feelings we force ourselves to hide from the world. So openly, unabashedly pleading for lost love vocalized by Mariah's angelic voice, it’s a perfect love ballad for those who live vicariously through music.

The video takes the emotion to another level. Directed by the visionary and legendary Herb Ritts (RIP).


Its like the quiet before a volcano erupts
Its like a silent thunderstorm
Its like oceans changing course
Its like the skies tearing apart
Its like judgement day with no decisions

Its like ice showers on snowy days
Its like being stranded with no map
Its like being straitjacketed with no voice
Its like being restrained with no defense
Its like shadows of the darkest nights
Its like the glaring sun on a dead patch

Move glaciers, you said you would
Promise joy, do you remember?
She ran away on her wedding day
She lost the battle before it began
Its like black magic in a fool's paradise