Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Voices Inside...

Like an iceberg, cold inside
Too frozen to thaw
The road was dark, too long, no direction
Ran the other way, got lost again
Light found its way, i wish i believed
Now i hear the voices inside
Silent all these years

Days went by full of tired excuses
Words were exchanged but had no meaning
You were the centre of your own universe
Caught in the eye of the storm, learnt the hard way
Sunshine seeped through a forgotten crevice
Now i hear the voices inside
Silent all these years

Mother said it right 'you cant hide from the sun'
She pressed 'man creates his own hell'
Why didnt we learn? Where did we go wrong?
Made so many mistakes, Faltered so many times
But everything must come around
Now i hear the voices inside
Silent all these years

Drowned repeatedly, unable to sail through the tides
Running away from the face of challenge and blocking away the chance of pain
Should've fought steadfastly...casting hurdles aside
The fear of adversity tortured the child inside, a tumultous ride
Should've held on...why did faith dissipate
Now i hear the voices
Silent all these years

War torn city, now to rebuild
Wilted flowers, bloom once again
Rain subsides, a rainbow appears
I will believe, i will stand up again
A voice may be frail, it never dies
Now i hear it loud and clear
These voices inside they guide you to what's right

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Unrelenting Ghost

Unrelenting ghost, why must you plague me?
Haunt me and never leave me
Your sound is so loud and your touch is like a thousand knives through my skin
As a child you maneuvered me and controlled my every move
You made your presence felt which i just cant erase
Memories that linger and moments i cant forget
Every time i see your face it all comes back to me
Unrelenting ghost, when will you go away?

A colour i cant describe and feelings i cant verbalize
I run to words but they escape me, so easily they leave me
So no one believes me and no one really understands
Maybe i dont realize it myself how you rear your ugly side
Catch me in when iam cornered with thoughts
Hold me when iam captured with visions of yesterday
Unrelenting ghost, you know me very well

A song brings to mind moments left behind
A smell makes you relive days gone by
A face makes you reminisce and little things comes alive
Unrelenting ghost you slowly make your way
So easily you grasp on tight
So effortlessly you hypnotize
Until I'm drowned inside of you

Unrelenting ghost, they will never know who you really are
And i will never be set free till i cast you aside
Unrelenting ghost, i must move on
I must walk away to start all over again

Unrelenting ghost, i hope you will understand
I hope you will realize why i left you behind
Emancipation is all i really need
I hope you will understand.

Bulletproof Soul

5 years ago sorrow was a known place and so was elation, now both places are strange and vague yet they're friends of mine. There was innocence and there were positive expectations and the freedom to run behind the elusive. There was no knowledge of a barren situation or a place where things jumble and plans crumble and sacrifice is all you can do. That time was never cherished, i don't know why but i never told myself that to cherish the day, i was busy chasing the sun. Hope was a happy word and not a tool strengthen yourself, it was what you lived on. You had no idea of what would happen if things didn't form the shapes you pictured and dreams were meant to come to fruition. It was an addiction, it was a high to keep moving, to keep driving yourself for more. Realism somehow lost itself into an uncharted territory and eyes were starry and the goal was no longer in sight yet you still kept running.

Dreams got bigger, hopes got fuller, faith was resolute but you forget what you really set out for, there was so much you wanted and so little time. At first the sun glistened and shone until it got too close and you were burnt till you shriveled. You awakened in this barren spot, life wasn't so fair and dreams were now further than ever. Lost is how i felt yet i kept chasing and yearning for more, how do you tell yourself to take it slow when you want so much more?

This grind repeated itself a million times and today you find yourself settling for whatever you have with flailing will and frail hope and little choice. You see old lovers with new friends, dreams working out for someone else, someone else is a star, sacrifices keep mounting and compromises keep piling. Life shows you an ugly side, yet something inside says faith never dies. And you will NOT let this bring you down and winter wont last so long. Every night you feel the chill and the stormy winds whistle outside but you know now you have a Bulletproof Soul. And nothing is impossible anymore and there's nothing you cant achieve. Nothing will hurt you, nothing can touch you because you have learnt the hard way. You now know you have a Bulletproof Soul.

Shot too many times right where it hurts, right where it bleeds
Love was a gun, no one won
You were trigger happy and this was the result, this was how it fares
But the story never ends for now you have a bulletproof soul

The sun is strong, it will burn you till you melt
You were wanting more, you tried to reach out
You found yourself alone, destroyed
But the sun fades for a brighter moon and stars are found
For now you have a bulletproof soul

The sea is endless, it will swallow you
You felt the thirst, you jumped right in
You drowned, you disappeared
But the waves brought you to the shore
For now you have a bulletproof soul

The rain wont stop, your drenched
You saw the fruit, you ran towards it
The storm caught you in its eye
but thunder led to sunshine and you were found
For now you have a bulletproof soul

A dream may have died last night
Morning brings new light
You may have lost yourself
But time finds you right in sight

There's nothing i cant do
For now i have a bulletproof soul

Bulletproof Soul :)

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Play That Sound Again

Play that sound again
Ruby nights, city lights, dreamy sights
Lovers who hold hands, Music & wine
Candlelight, Diamonds in the sky
Fervent hopes, Heady laughter
Moonlight, You in sight
Smiles Exchanged, Reverie apparent

Play that sound again
Elated, Lifted, Way up in the sky
Natural High, Shadows dancing on the wall
Moving so slow, Moving to the groove
In another place in time

Play that sound again
New day, New life
Resurfaced feelings, Hypnotic daydreams
Stories retold, New sheen, New meaning
Slow motion, Paused moments
Play that sound again

What A Wicked Thing To Say???

Is it really a wicked thing to do.... to make me dream of you? Is it really a wicked thing to say...you never felt this way?

Chris Isaak very famously sang this line in his haunting hit 'Wicked Game'. Sometimes i listen to this song and lose myself to the tune. It transports me to the beach where they shot the video and everything in my life is suddenly black and white.Relating to the lyrics isnt uncommon, i know so many people who have been affected by this song in so many ways. Isn't it so poignant to say 'The world's on fire and no one could save me but you'? According to me that line defines the reason why desire puts the best people among us in a tailspin. Why does desire rule over so many of us? i keep trying to put it aside and so do you for all i know but in a moment of darkness we all succumb, we give in. Particularly heart wrenching and alarmingly realistic albeit cynical is 'This world will only break your heart'. I find it realistic as many of us have been wronged in matters of love and why i find it cynical is because the lyrics leave no space for hope and faith in believing that the world may break your heart but it mends it as well, regardless the line stands out and literally haunts you to agree. How simply he hums 'No, i dont wanna fall in love with you' yet its so powerfully conveyed, its such a helpless cry as if he is falling into this endless pit inadvertently ending up alone.

Sometimes i turn the lights off and throw myself on the bed and drown into the song and it always results in me connecting with the song in a truly subconscious and paranormal way as if it speaks to me. How many of us have felt the rush of excitement when somebody new comes along and then also felt helpless that things dont go the way you hoped leading to this sense of agony and heartbreak. This song captures anguish, remorse and indigninance all at once, showcasing pain in the simplest form, the lyrics are subdued and speak a thousand words. Truly this song is one of the most melancholic songs in history. Not to forget Isaak has one of the most soothing and plaintive voices in music. This is definetely a classic song, a storybook in itself. Here are the lyrics:

World was on fire, and no one could save me but you,
Strange word desire will make foolish people do.
I never dreamed that id meet somebody like you.
I never dreamed that id lose somebody like you.
No I dont wanna fall in love, With you.
What a wicked game ot play,
To make me feel this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you.
What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you.
No I dont wanna fall in love, With you.
World was on fire, no one would save me but you.
Strange word desire will make foolish people do.
I never dreamed that id love somebody like you.
I never dreamed that id lose somebody like you.
No I dont wanna fall in love, With you.
Nobody loves no one.

Lyrics by Chris Isaak

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Old Friend (New Edit)

Old friend...
You haunt me and creep into my dreams
Slowly wander into this placeless place
Into the shadows of my mind i find you
I tried relentlessly to forget yet you linger
I hear words unsaid and the promises unkept
I see smiles we left behind and the worlds we abandoned
You still live there with me despite our untimely end

Old friend...
These memories wont dissipate and the charm wont wane
Though you left long ago you seem right here
Why cant i seem to forget, why does nothing compare
I assumed the storm subsided yet iam swept away
I see your face, but now in such a different way
The chill settles in and its just another lonely day

Old friend...
Do you remember those long evenings, the crescent moon and the city lights?
The incandescent eyes and the warmth of my embrace?
The laughter still echoes in this timeless time where i find you
Do you still hear? or does another friend occupy your mind
Do you ever look back and reminsce...
Do i wander into your thoughts
Do you make believe that iam still around or have you moved on?

Old friend
Every now and then i envision us
I paint pictures of how it could be
I console myself somehow
Time wasnt on my side

Old friend...wherever you may be tonight
Do u still remember?

The Ocean Is Where I Belong

I stand on the beach, the golden sun and the blue waters, misty eyed
Running unbridled with no direction with feet firmly on the sand..

A picture relinquishes, A vision blurs

Here iam on land, noone to guide me & noone beside me
A sea of people pass me by, loud noises, mad city lights
My eyes trying to take in as much, growing weary & fading dreary
A heart fighting to function & giving up..through endless rain
Hope staggerring & flailing, the wind is much too strong
A voice dies without a goodbye note and so many reasons untold
but something inside says...the ocean is where i belong

I see the endless sea, i hear my name
Ask me to join u and i will, say the word
Fill me up, drown me with your endless might, take me where you might
Far away into another land, a place never seen
Until I find myself lying on the shore of a new world
Dont burn into another dream..Live for me
One more night awaits me, no light in sight
The same dream haunts me, never leaves me
Yet Something inside says...the ocean is where i belong

Hungry for life...grasping onto faith for a better day
Broken many a times, burdened till it cracked
Bruised inside, cursed outside, smart enough to hide
Cried through angry tides, kept everything in my stride
Words spoken, words kept furtive
Some made clear and some never understood
The same script everyday, the same lies
Smile for a thousand eyes..hold on till they say goodbye
Retreat when the sun dies....run and cry
Catching teardrops over a million, each with a story to tell
Shadows of memories locked away somewhere in my mind
Yet something inside me says...the ocean is where i belong

Yet something lingers, dives and jumps, fights every storm
It says out so loud 'The ocean is where you belong'
Maybe the ocean is where i belong
Dont u know the ocean is where i belong